Wednesday, September 28, 2005
i wanna sleep, yet i cant sleep!
school big screwed up!! work as screwed as school!!
broadband still down, cant do a single shit at all!!
plenty of datelines to meet, and nothing can be done!!
my exams ard the corner, have not start revision!!
sux! simply just sux!! stressed big time!!
i wanna break free from all these..
feeling so miserable... :(
7:27 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
frenz always tell me... alot of things are better left unknown... this way, it will spare myself lots of disappointment.. i understand where they are coming from..
but i can simply use 101 ways to prove if what i feel is right... i cannot stand that kinda feeling of uncertainty and being suspended half way... not knowing the actual fact... the 9 out of 10 times, is always proven accurate.. end up feeling down and unhappy... sighz! sometimes, i just dun understand myself.. isn't it better to just act blur, and pretend nothing happen or pretend not to see... i m really kinda looking for problems right? chinese call this 犯贱... >_<
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4:51 AM
Friday, September 23, 2005
extract this from a survey... para 1 is so so true! as for the rest... i'm lazy to read on...
You understand that new does not always mean better and you see no reason to skip from one fad to the next. You value things that have stood the test of time, things that have proved themselves. You hate to kill time? that would be cruel, and after all, every moment is precious. You are fully aware that life is a one lap race. You like to enjoy every moment, getting lots out of life, because you put lots in.
You love to be right, and take great pains to avoid ever being wrong. You can be compulsively rational and some see you as a perfectionist. You tend to listen to your "inner critic", your inner set of standards that tends to be quite rigorous, and independent of what other people tell you. Hence, you are often very self-critical, and sometimes critical of others as you expect the same high standards of others that they have imposed on yourselves. Often your this energy is channeled into discipline, organization, a strong work ethic and a love of fairness, justice, and truth.
Famous people who share these traits include:Hillary Clinton, Alan Greenspan, Ralph Nader, Martha Stewart, Aristotle, Queen Elizabeth II, Tony Blair
5:59 AM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
9:14 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
hey! ethernet card problem solved!! kekeke.... finally...
jeffery said i look much happier now... i told him i'm always the same, no difference.. but he dun agree... hmmm... i din know that i appear to be an unhappier individual.. wat he said reminds me that once a fren used to say i'm a person who is 人前欢喜，人后忧愁... so it's true on me? hmm....
anyway, thanks jeffery for everything... oh ya! my mum refused to believe ur age! =x
12:19 AM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
ytd started using my broadband.. tat technician refuse to fix the ethernet card for me.. insist must use usb port.. so nvm loh.. wat to do.. let him use usb port..
when i reach home from sch.. my sister d/l her pics she took in japan.. she tried so many times.. pc refuse to detect my digi cam.. so i tried to plug in my thumb drive.. my thumb drive cant be detected.. is my thumb drive faulty? worried mannn.... but cant be becos i tried using it in sch and in office.. wondering wat's happening to my pc..
tried this tried that.. then something strike my mind, mayb conflict of usb port.. so i asked my sister to plug out the usb modem.. n viola!! digi cam n thumb drive can be detected.. then plug in the modem.. n now my pc is unable detect modem.. arggghhh!!! meaning i can only use 1 at 1 time.. if wanna use modem, my other usb port will not be detected.. wat the hell loh!!! so ridiculous mann~ now, i have try to fix tat ethernet card on my own ler.. so chimz for me... :(
then the free psp that comes with the bb promotion.. at first, singnet customer service lady told me that the technician will bring the psp to me.. so tat i dun haf to go down to collect.. n guess wat!! tat technician din bring loh... n gave me a voucher instead.. no choice have to go down to FTMS hse to get it.. while reading the voucher's term n conditions.. it said "valid from 17 OCt to 30 Nov 2005".. my bloood really boils!!! i have to wait for a mth to get my psp.. n y in the first place i'm not informed.. argghhh... in the first place, singnet shld not make any empty promises.. and should tell me tat the collection of psp will start next mth.. at least i dun feel so fustrated.. imagine if i dun read.. n went down straight.. tat will be simply a waste of my time mann... argghhh... n now i'm stuck with singnet for 36 mths...
feel so cheated... :(
1:31 AM
Friday, September 16, 2005
my sister bought this from japan... is the momo peach season now... these peaches have ratings for their ripeness and sweetness...
the 1 i ate ytd, sweetness is rated 17.. geesssh!! is really very sweet n juicy... yummmy!!! it has a thin layer of skin.. is like a think layer of film on the peach.. easy to peel off..
mayb get her to buy more on her next trip to japan.. =p
1:15 AM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
finally done my reflection journal... geeshhh!!! brain dead...
simply dun understand what's the purpose of such journal.. got to write about the whole learning process, what have been learn, how it gonna help in my professional job (in the first place, wat i'm doing ain't a profession job), how i contribute to the assignment, my strength n weakness... blah blah blah... aiyo... kinda waste of time rite?? anyway.. i'm planning of using 1 reflection for all my assignments.. =x
my sis back from New York last night... haven seen her for the past 9 days.. the moment she stepped in, she ask.. "有想我吗?" *smack forehead* is like almost 1am.. and she's shouting away.. anyway, of cos 有想咯... kekeke! and again, she bought lots of food home again.. really a glutton.. with her smelly uniform still on her.. she dig out all the foood and made us eat.. insisted that i must eat the tuna loti she brought back from Narita... n guess wat!! she ta bao chawanmushi back home all the way from Japan.. tat chawanmushi still in good condition.. wonder how she did tat mann... comes to food.. she's gd! *bravo* she will be hanging ard for awhile before going to LA! she's taking plane more often than i take cab.. hohoho!! is always great to have her back.. n thanks darly for accompanying her home.. :D
i upgraded my internet.. finally!! been using 56k dial up for the past 10 years... i'm not joking, realy serious.. wonder how i survive with tat kinda speed... if not for the promotion.. think i'll still be using 56k.. hahahaha!! 3 more days to the arrival of my PSP!! hahahaha~~ wooo hooo~~ PSP! PSP! PSP!
11:58 PM
any English expert out there??
my english simply sux! sux big time... i cant write :( i faced alot of problems trying to put my thinking into words using the right language.. y cant they allow me to write in chinese?? this gonna be much easier for me.. sighz!
think i need english tuition... sobbing~
2:07 PM
ahh... HRM's dateline next fri... n.. n... we have not start a bit yet... *sobbing*
a grp of 6 persons' job.. has become a grp of 4 person's job... 2 idling in my group... ppl said full time student's job is to study... and these students are the more 'siao on' bunch of group... WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! bullshit... the 2 full time students r not doing anything... always busy with projects.. unable to meet... uncontactable.. Part 1 applies.. now part 2 still the same... really pissed off mann... so not fair.. we do up assignment n they get the grades... they dun even call or ask if we have started.. they r not worried that we cant meet the dateline.. wat the hell!!!
really need a miracle to get through this assignment... *depressed*
12:19 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
i really really need a break mann... i wan to eat play sleep... eat play sleep... kekeke!!
but i cant :(
everyweek, there's 1 submission of assignment.. till 06 Oct 2005... last submission date... after tat no more assignments... but... but... there're exams!!
*stressed up big time*
exams r of really weird timing.. dates r all on weekdays, timing in the morning or afternoon... guess need to take day off to take exams...
at first... i wanna aim for HD for my course.. but.. but... really too tiring and difficult to strike balance between work, school and social life.. sighz.. now just attaining a pass will be more than enough.. sigh..
i wanna take duper long leave.. 7 to 10 days... dun know my mgr will approve not.. :P
12:27 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
on tuesday night, i worked whole night my journals.. rushing to meet the dateline on wednesday... worked till after 3am..
n guess what!! wrote out of point.. not 1 journal... but all 5 are out of contect.... sigh... *devestated*
burning of midnight oil tonight again.. dateline postpone to tml..
so so tired... :(
12:15 AM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
last night, as usual, can't get to sleep.... nothing for me to do.. pretty bored, so end up thinking about some stuff.. i was thinking, if 1 day i drop dead suddenly... who are the people i wanna inform, and what are the last thing i wanna to do... hmm.. so i came up with a list:
People i wanna inform:
my mum & dad
my sister: Evelyn & Esther
uncle alex & family
uncle cyril & family
Baby (Dawn)
Ben See
Jennifer
Jiahui
Meijia
Melvyn
Paul
Sharon
Yufen
is okie for these grp of ppl not to attend my funeral if they are unable to make it... so if any1 knows about my death.. eehhh, just contact and inform each other hor! come to realise, i actually have less than 10 frens... pathetic rite? :P
there's only 1 thing i wanna do.. after all funeral expenses, any of my outstanding wealth is the be share equally among my 2 sisters... although now, i dun have much wealth, who knows 1 day i might strike toto rite? this money is not for them to buy luxury goods, like newphones, mp3 player, etc... more for their emergency use... :p
simple will of mine... ^_^
12:26 AM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
nothing to do at work.. reporting to work on a sat is so waste of time.. enjoy aircon.. chat with colleagues, etc hahaha! now waiting for 1 of my candidate to show up.. hope wont be too late, so i dun have to stay behind after 1pm.. kinda tired!! din sleep again.. let me see.. ytd was my 4th sleepless night.. :p i need to go home n nap nap... cos at night cfm cant sleep again.. kekeke!!
whole of august, i did not fall sick! :p i'm fit!! wonder sept will i still be fit... *hmmm*
just handed up my Part 1 of FHRM... geesh! great relieve mann.. after class.. ahjia said hungry.. wan to eat "plata".. for a moment, i have no idea wat that is.. after thinking.. i realized is pRata.. lol!! so we went plata makan.. she ate 2 platas (1 go-song + 1 cheese) and mili dino.. kekeke! i ate 1/2 plate of mee goreng.. or izzit less than 1/2? ahjia is digging in most of the mee goreng.. kekeke! told her, cant jio me go eat like dat every night, later i become a bui auntie.. then lelong oso nobody wanna pick me up.. hahaha! i went home with a stuffed and bloated stomach.. feeling so sick.. *puke*
moments ago, i'm toking about starting my first class in SIM... now, exams approaching in 4 weeks' time.. STRESSED!! having migraine for a few days, izzit due to stress or not enuff sleep? i dun know.. kekeke! still thinking if i should take leave to study for my exams... but i've got no study leave.. sighz! timetable not out yet, difficult to plan... high uncertainty, lesser formalization, organic structure, open systems.. kekeke! taught in OSD lecture.. sux!
ppl asking me.. m i aiming for pass or a HD (high distinction)... b4 i start my course, i'm aiming to ace.. but now, i'm just aiming to pass.. is so difficult to juggle between work n school.. being able to pass is already good enough, but of cos, getting a HD is definately a bonus... :p
left with 5 more subjects if i manage to clear this semester... how many subj shld i take for sem2? take 3 subj in sem2 and clear the last 2 in sem3 or take 2subj in sem 2 and clear 3 in sem3? any advice from the ground... pls do comments...
life is the same thing day in day out.. eat sleep work school eat sleep work school.. so stagnant, no ups.. no down.. is this a good thing? i wonder... good and bad, mayb... there's a song goes "平凡也是一种幸福..." but ehhh... abit too 平凡 le ba... kekeke!!
times flies... is already september... 3 more mths, 2005 comin to an end... sigh! looking back the past 8 mths, seems like not much of achievements... wasted these 8 mths... :(
1:53 AM
